cant think properly cus of this.
didnt know tht things like tht could actualy happen, w the people actualy doing it.
w/o me knowing, things hav changd. they hav slanders, backstabbed, letting me see it.
i simply want t take it as childish acts, but how? no one wld want their acts t be known t the world unless they hav a motive, aint it? they wld only want t tel the whole world first so tht they wld be believd?

i tried t nt think bout it,
i tried t giv in, thinking its okay.
i tried t take silence as my stand. cus i dont want t hurt.
but what did i get back in return.
look back, are memories & genuine friendship realy not worth a single penny?
& aftr so long, i am that t you?
i realy hate t believe it.
who chose t escape, t not talk bout it, & not know the truth, how i felt bout it.
making it public isnt pretty much the best choice.
i am here, always here t listen & talk it out.
but you chose the othr option.
what cld i hav done, othr than doing what i did?
yes, i was mad, but who wldnt be? who wldnt? but did i do anything??
im a human, a girl aftrall. stand in my shoes, is tht realy what you think of me?

no matter how wrongd, i wldnt do things behind my friends back & spread things.
no way. even my enemy.
furthermore we'r friends.
as i stil hav hope of taking you as one.

not evrything has a person t be the cause & blame.
not evrytime someone has t be wrong.
mayb it could hav been nothing ifyou talked.
& i got hit, hard.

im confused, people can change overnight into something so unbelievable.
& i know tears wont help. (nwod emac suj ti tub)

words can hurt, can hurt alot. spared a thot for othrs, felt anything bad twards it?
can things not be solved logically, by proper means, even if ther is a problem?
i wil bear w it. no matter what. i will not try t blow the matter up but if someone else does, what can i say.

i dont want you, or me t be unhappy over it anymore.
but it wont work if im the only one here.
i stil hope.

fate, only t be lost halfway? no i dont want t.

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