so am i suppose t take it tht im in the whole wrong?
i dont understand, whats the point being so fierce.
even thou the first part isnt even bout you.

i wasnt even the one who stopped talking. i didnt make faces bcus i thot i heard stuf bout me.
in front of me, evrywher.
i pretended not t hear.

& why was i angry. its hard, so hard t calm you down & at least think things in anothr perspective.
talk is not equivalent t a hint t make you apologise. it is not a method of pushing blames, or shouldering it.
you could correct me if im wrong bout things, you could say, you could tel me. rathr than me hearing things behind my back.
& taking faces being made.
stil i had t think of a way t not worsen the situation.
i know i might be impulsive sometimes.

admit, was angry. very initially. but what cld i do?
i did NOT accuse, i did not do anything t stop your progress.
instead, i put it aside hoping i can play my part by not making any noise. i respected our pivacy, i did not tel.
but im human, i hav emotions & hav t let off my steam.
make noise, scream, whatevr.
mayb it was wrong t do it in tht place.

but perhaps my words werent even meant t be you.
hav you thought of tht, or were you blinded by anger?
nevrm bout that.

i do need t know what EXACTLY happened, if not i wont even know why & how things was interpreted. yea, coincidental. no fault, thats why i did not get $*@Y$^ over it.
i know how the whole coursework goes, evryone has their own needs & changes their ideas in the way.
i kept myself away frm the boundary too.
so i dont know wher youve got the idea of me wronging you from.
i didnt know ther was a major problem til the post.

i would get mad over what youre saying bout me if you were my enemy.
but youre not.
i dont understand how you can intepret things even thou theyre not meant for you, & use hypocrite on me. omg. i rathr not talk than t be hypocritical.
not t mention in what way hav i offended.
okay, mayb the fact tht i couldnt get over it, for a few hours.
it was emotional.
so were you? isnt it.

& i hav not, hav not even reacted, not t mention overreact. i tried so many means t salvage the situation.
but now im trembling at the words.
at the words you can use on a fren you were w for two years,
jus bcus of something you thot.
its not the ideas problem, its our understanding.
if i cld understand & try t reflect, can you?

i do apologise for my straightforwardness & inability t control my emotions.
but my silence on the matter does not mean i plead guilty.
pls understand.

so what in the reality hav i done t deserve this?
i feel so unworth, so unworth that friendship can be so vulnerable.
broken by invisibility, misinterpretation?