stressed is the word. so stressed i cant even be botherd t use caps t express my anxiety now.
shld i join syf?

1. i hav absolutely no time, on top of my disastrous math, hectic art, falling geog & complicatd econs (im relieved pw is over, for now), math hol hw, geog hol hw, Art As prep, blogshop, xmas event, gp tuition +hw, math tuition +2papers/week, self learn jap & loads of drama series (optional)

2. im not sure my physical can take it even if i devote every single minute into doing one of the above. i can sacrifice my 8hrs of sleep/day in the hols but til April next year? omg.

3. how am i sppose t study next year til April w syf pracs + concert pracs going on? even if i can, i wil barely survive & how t catch up for jcts which is in like, 2months?!


BUT then, if i dont join,

a. i might be kicked out of dance.

b. CONFIRM zaki & ms wee will not let me do my concert bellydance item. (omg.)

c. i wil have no face (but does that matter VS my A level results that determines nearly 90% of my career life?)


alright, dear frens, i know youre reading this. if you have some brilliant plan t help me w this war inside me, or have super ice soothing words to calm me down/ inspire me, pls do so. yes.

ps. angel i am so sorry, i know youre so busy w evrything alr & stil im like trying t ask for your opinions. gosh. promise, this is the last time.

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i guess i must realy solve all my own problems. myself. (?)




dknw la!

brr.